Blogging and Archive!
This is an archive for all the old updates and general life updates I feel like posting here! It's more detailed (or at least will be) than what I update on the updates section on the front page! I won't be posting an update on home whenever I post a blog, but it will be marked as "new" here. Maybe eventually I'll have a more concise way of organizing it, but we'll see if I need that.
Anything that's written in basic text is considered an update post and is probably copy/pasted from the front page! If it's italicized like this , then it's a blog post.
Aside from the move and the jobs, a lot has happened since the last update in early 2023. First and most tragically, the cat that was hit hardest by covid in the last update passed away- not from covid (though I imagine it wasn't good on her system), but from complications due to old age. She made it to 21! On a much brighter note, I finally started testosterone! Not only that, but I started on the SAME DAY as one of my partners... Our "rebirthday" as we call it was April 2nd, 2024! It's been over a year now and between the ups and downs it's been the best decision I've ever made. Even with all the dangers facing the trans community these days, I've never been happier. I feel like I was barely living. Now there's a future ahead of me.
Not long after starting testosterone, I got to see my favorite band of all time LIVE for their 20th anniversary of one of their albums. Say Anything, which I had been listening to since I was a freshman in highschool and perminantly altered my brain chemistry. Not only that, but it was the anniversary of their ...Is a Real Boy album, which was the first album I ever bought myself with my own money. I also got to see Andrew Jackson Jihad while there, who was one of the opening acts and that was super cool. I have the day burned into my memory and I'm never going to forget it.
I've gotten a new cat, named Maggie, from my most recent boss who I called Chef. He got a REALLY good offer in another state and had to move ASAP, but couldn't take Maggie with him. With us having lost Cookie about a year prior at that point, we had the space for her. She's SO sweet and is adjusting surprisingly well. My baby sister came out, I started writing a Kingdom Hearts fanfic that's currently sitting at something like 35k words and is MAYBE 1/5th of the way finished. Life is good these days, even when it's hard. I have people I love around me and even on the worst, darkest days there is hope and love. Some of my friends went to the No Kings protest, and while I had other commitments at the time the turnout was huge. I hope it marks a turning point and this doesn't end up in like, a youtube video about "old websites that have haunting backstories" or whatever 20 years from now. But I'm happy. Things are going to be okay. And I'm just going to keep making art forever. Also I got super back into crochet and have been making things like a madman- I'll probably post pics of those too here! I dont know if it'll have its own page or not though tbh. We'll see! This is getting rambly, so I'll wrap it up. Hopefully I'll be able to keep on keeping on.
So. A lot has happened in my time away. We finally found a place to move, it... sucks hard, actually, but whatever. It's a place to be. Sorry for the downer tone too, I just found out a few hours ago that I was fired from a job that I really looked forward to, and I'm not wholely convinced that it isn't because I'm openly transgender. But lets roll it back. Starting in October, once we moved into the new place, we all got Covid again. I had to leave my old job that was decent because it was too far away, and my new job was a pyramid scheme that I quit just before coming down with Covid. That's the second time I've had it, so it was absolutely fucking brutal. My *cats* got covid, and one of them almost died. We all made it out the other side though at least, so there's that. Then, I jumped to a new kitchen job that let me go a few months in because they weren't doing well financially. Then I got another job that paid less but gave me more hours, at the expense of my mental health. I QUIT that place for the job that I ended up just now getting fired from. They say its because of performance issues, but I had just been told how good I was doing, and there was no warning or write up before this. It came right off the back of me asking them to start using he/him pronouns for me, so.
I'm exhausted. I'm tired and heartbroken. But I'm not going to let this stop me. I made some good friends while at that last job, and one of them might be able to get me work at her girlfriend's work, so here's hoping. Current events has been getting me way, way down thanks to the villainization of trans people at pretty much every turn, but I've got a little hope. I'm going to be starting HRT soon, on my own terms, once I get a new job. And once that's handled, I'll at least be able to move up from there. I think that if things keep getting this bad, I dont know how long I'll be able to hold out. But for now, I'm still fighting, still making art. I just finished a 35k word project as a gift to myself that I'll be posting on friday on my Ao3, since it's the ten year anniversary of me roleplaying a specific rendition of Trainer Red from Pokemon. I'm proud of that, and I hope that people will enjoy it. I enjoyed writing it for sure. I've also gotten back into the Mechanisms, and started working with ancient Egyptian gods more often, its... I've got a lot going on. My bipolar has been kicking me in the ass lately, too, but I'm still standing. Just gotta keep making art, just gotta keep doing my thing. If anything, I'll at least be able to leave my art behind when I'm gone.
As promised, July was intensely difficult. Still haven't found a place for us to move into, and the other day my car window was smashed in. A few weeks before that in the dead center of the month, I had a paycheck that covered the bills we needed... except food. Things seem to be looking up lately though- I got donations from some incredibly kind people online, enough to fix my window so I can drive safely, I finally got my car legally in my name so that I never have to talk to my abuser again, and my last paycheck was really sturdy. I'm just hoping that the appartment we've applied to approves us in the next few days, so that we can get moving in. I've also been binging Welcome To Nightvale! I listened to it back when it first came out, all the way up til just past the Strex Overthrow arc. Listening to the more recent stuff, it gets incredibly, amazingly intense and I love it. WTNV is always going to be intensely personal to me, it's just as amazing as I remember it being as a kid. Ten years now! Wow. Also, I've been getting together with a few friends online to do witchcraft-related stuff. Mostly just sharing information and chatting about magical practices, but it's nice. I might do a little something once we get moved into the new place. I'll see where I am when the dust settles. Thanks to everyone who's been supporting me, I'll try and keep up with my art more often from now on. Things have been... difficult today. The house that we were hoping to move into may have fallen through, and I'm really feeling the weight of the upcoming month. I'm trying to stay focused on creating and staying optimistic, but it's hard. I was so... excited to pack and start over in this new place. And I'm struggling to stay on top of things I guess. Things are bad across the world right now and it's getting to me, too. Oh well. We'll figure it out.
I also plan to eventually replace a lot of what's on this blog with original sprites and items? No ETA for that, or what to expect about it, but I figure it'll clean up the code on my end and look more.... me, I guess! I can say that July is going to be a really hard month for me, generally speaking, so I'm hoping that's kind to my creative process. I also hope to blog here a lot, hope to write more and generally be more active instead of just letting the days pass me by. I've been doing a lot of that lately when I more than anything want to Create. We'll see how this upcoming month treats me. On the plus side, it's Echo's birthday tomorrow and I am SO EXCITED! They're my first partner and I love him so so so so much. !No extra info because this is from before I started the blog lol! 
(6.16.25) LOL Guess who forgot about his blog! THIIIIS GUUUUUY! But I'm back at it now and plan on posting a lot more- or at least posing in bursts and forgetting about the website again, as per usual. Part of it was because life got kind of crazy- the next job I picked up was a super early in the morning factory bakery that lasted about a year! I got fired from there right after they started making bad financial decisions that I was vocal about being a bad idea... but! That lead me into what's probably been the best job I've ever had, where I'm still at now. It's super busy and doesn't leave a LOT of time for my art, but it does leave me a lot less scared for my finances. More importantly honestly, I've since moved from a shitty, roach infested appartment that was way too fucking small for the polycule, into a house we're renting! Its worlds better for all of our physical and mental health. My fiance is even growing a vegetable garden in the back yard now, and I just finished having a delicious cucumber snack from their hard work.
(3.29.23) There is... a LOT to go over in my time away. I moved to a new city, I got Covid, I cycled through four jobs.
(8.1.2022) Added a bunch of new alter-related art today, including two whole comics- one with a fictive's backstory, and another having to do with letting our parts help each other. Also, this new guy is just fun to draw! lol. (6.25.2022) Working on my new graphics! Gradually I want to replace what I have on the website with things that are 100% original, so here's hoping it all goes over well! (6.24.2022) Updated my Non-Furry Art, and added a metric fuckton of dragons to my fun page, plus moved all that to the bottom because wow. Holy Shit. Also added the blog section, which is still a work in progress! Also did a lot of formatting and fixed a problem with the scrollbar. Also, from now on, I'll have in this section only the 5 most recent updates (once I have that many...) so that people can see at a glance without having to check out the blog page what all's the most new. Anything past that gets archived over on the blog! 
(5.18.2022) Updated to divide out my adult dragons from my hatchlings and eggs on the fun page, and added two new selfship peices to my non-furry art pages! I've been BIIIIG into Naruto lately so you all will have to deal with that lmao.